Looking behind- Moving forward.

February 3, 2008

I’m trying to put the feelings and event s of the last few months behind me and start again. I’m taking the approach that Chinese new year will be the beginning a new year for me. I don’t want to write off 2007 entirely, some good things happened (like Japan), but there are some things that I need to let go.

I want to get back into work, photography (both personal and professional, including the 365 project) and other things I’m committed to.  I want to get organised and motivated and out of the funk I’ve been stuck in.

I’ve been quiet for many reasons depression, lack of motivation, starting work again- but for those who don’t know, the last week and a bit has been tough on me and my extended family. My Grandfather passed away last Tuesday after months of deterioration and illness. I’ve been surprised he lasted this long, but frustrated that while his will to live diminished, his weak organs continued to function. As this proud man lost more and more of his dignity- we could do nothing but watched. In a way, this week has been a release. We said good bye to him on Wednesday and it was nice to see the family together, even if it was such sad circumstances.

Seeing my family, cousins and their kids bring up those other issues that I’m ignoring at the moment, just to survive.

I’ve also spent the last week back at work and following this meal replacement program with varying degrees of success. There’s a lot to talk about with it, but possibly a different time, a different place.

I really need to move forward and try to make some positive changes to my attitude and motivation. For the first time in 5 years- I don’t know whether I particularly want to detail it on the internet.

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