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Way to ruin a good weekend

Bronwyn — Sun, 14 Sep 2008 08:18:19 +0000

Maybe I shouldn’t use my blog to bitch about work, but to be honest- I don’t think I’ve got a lot left to lose. As we speak I’m probably being considered incompetent and unprofessional because files that left complete when I went on secondment are now allegedly incomplete.

I found this out after a phone call from work at 11am on a Sunday.

Up until then, my weekend was going swimmingly. Saturday had been nice, going to the markets with BMB, getting new comics, sorting out wedding stuff with Frank and a smashing bout at Beenleigh.

I was planning to spend a lot of today processing photos and stuff. Instead I’ve felt sick, stressed and generally depressed because there’s a problem I can do nothing about and my commitment should be at my current position.

What have I got to lose?

Sorry Nicole

Bronwyn — Mon, 17 Apr 2006 01:50:39 +0000

My gorgeous friend is down from Mackay and wanted to hang out today. I can’t, because I’ve got bloody WORK to do. This sucks -I need to start a new job now.

Putting it all in perspective

Bronwyn — Sat, 08 Apr 2006 09:37:12 +0000

To say I’ve had a bad week would be an understatement, there has been tears, yelling and gnashing of teeth. It’s been awful. Not kid related at all- mainly to do with what I’ve got to do, in what time and the support (or in some cases, lack thereof) I am getting.
I’m feeling very disillusioned with my job. I know I’ve said this sort of thing before, I’m generally not the brightest of people, but this is different. I really feel bad everyday. Nauseous- thinking of ways to get out of it. I’ve already taken too many sick days this year. I’ve been trying to think why- I like most of my students, I don’t have any I can’t stand face (unlike past years), I like my classes, I enjoy most of what I’m teaching and I have fun with the kids in class or extra curricular stuff. In fact, the kids are why I’m there.
It’s got a lot to do with the people I work with- those in the staff room who freeze me out, others who expect stuff without doing anywork, people who expect things immediately when I’m in charge of 30 teenagers, those people who say I do too much- but don’t offer to help me, and those who think I am disorgansied and don’t get things done properly. These are my collegues, professionals, many of whom seem to have lost any empathy or collegial support. It’s frustrating. I’ve looked at my options and I’m thinking of a few ways to reduce that frustration- watch this page.
I know I whinge, and I know there are other’s worse off than me, and of course, my life could be a hell of a lot worse. Yesterday brought that all into perspective.
Friday is our shopping day, driving back from Sunnybank, BMB points out some smoke on the horizon, in the direction of our house. I dismiss it, saying that it’ll be kids lighting fires down the creek. As we get closer, it’s too far north to be the creek- in fact it’s in the top part of the road, near our house. BMB starts to get anxious- it looks like our block.
There’s two sets of lights to our place and they can’t change soon enough. The closer we get, the closer it looks like it’s our place. I have an empty pit in my stomach thinking of the cats.
As we turn into our street- there is a roadblock of police cars and fire crews. There is a group of people standing around the house two doors up. The fire is almost out now, but the place has been gutted.

We go the back way around, hoping we can get into our driveway. The cops are just past it and let us in. I’m shaking, but releived. I’m also upset and worried. I know most of the families on our part of the street and I’m concerned about the family that lives in the house on the corner that is still surrounded by fireys.
I see one of the little boys, but not his grandfather who is a fixture of the street. There is an ambulance with a stretcher near the house. I’m worried what or who the firefighters are going to bring out. I scan the groups of people on the street watching the house still burning. There he is, with the rest of his family- watching. Their car was parked outside our house.

My life might be bad- but yesterday I didn’t watch my home and belongings go up in smoke.

Of course I’m still here

Bronwyn — Tue, 22 Nov 2005 08:23:58 +0000

Not that you could see me under this pile of stuff to do……………….
It’s the pointy end of the year, where I smother myself in the work I should have been doing weeks months ago and reporting etc etc.
Meanwhile, lack of sleep and what not has left me with a very nasty looking coldsore.

On a much less self- obsessed note, my thoughts go out to my friend the Robster whose Dad passed away on Sunday. Losing a parent is one of those things you know will happen some time, but you never want it to. His dad was also an old friend of my Mum’s which also brings those feelings home. I was hoping to get to the funeral, but I really don’t think I can get off work.

This week has not been great, the only little ray of sunshine is the new (for me, it’s actually ~~second -hand~~ refurbished) Pocket PC. I’m not quite sure of it’s actual use- I just wanted one and I thought it could be handy for work. It’s neat with a little camera, wi-fi and the rest. It’ll be fun, cos I love gadgets.

Back at work

Bronwyn — Mon, 26 Sep 2005 12:37:55 +0000

I’m already stressed and over it. So much to do and a couple of busy weeks. I can’t get into a normal routine.

better?

Bronwyn — Thu, 21 Jul 2005 12:06:13 +0000

Back at work- I feel a little better knowing I am not the only one who feels sick, down and stressed about work. In my staffroom there is often talk of what else we could be doing. Makes you feel you are not alone, but still doesn’t make it better

Only one more day till the weekend!!!!!

Happy Happy

Bronwyn — Wed, 20 Jul 2005 11:51:07 +0000

Finally I seem to have got working what needs to be and apart from losing the polaroidonizer (due to copyright issues) , the rest of this is pretty good.

We’ll keep trundling along and watch what happens.

In other news- 3 meeetings (before school, lunch and after school), 4 lessons and 20 mins tomorrow. With high blood pressure, that should be interesting.

Down, down, down

Bronwyn — Tue, 19 Jul 2005 08:19:42 +0000

I’m not really happy. I hardly taught today- all my spares on one day. So for the rest of the week I have no preparation time, just teach, teach, teach.

Spent $10 on afternoon tea today. I didn’t need it, I had junk food yesterday. I’m not doing myself any favours- and I feel down about that.
I went to buy some stationery at Officeworks to cheer myself up – cards wouldn’t work. It seems I’ve been living a little too much of the high life.
I really need to pull myself together.

BTW- if you want to read my last entry (Frank / Tony/ other friends, this means you) email me for a password, I’m just protecting myself. And testing out the protection function

Protected: Depressed

Bronwyn — Mon, 18 Jul 2005 12:01:19 +0000

Long Week

Twmpyn — Tue, 30 Nov 1999 00:00:00 +0000

It’s been a long, stresstful and depressing week at work. While I don’t feel great- some red wine and lamb shanks, along with Black books and Adult Swim seem to put it al in perspective.