Bit by Bit

I seem to be suffering two things, a lack of commitment or motivation to excercise and an obsession with hamburgers.
Neither is good for weight loss. Moreso- my next meeting with the doc is only a month away. It’s not going to be good at all. My lack of commitment can be ssen in my failure to blog my feelings and weigh ins. I hate feeling like I have to lose weight, and I hate hating myself for not doing it.
My health seems fine (althought this mysterious blood pressure could be weight related, but doubtful) but I’m more worried about getting the green light for a family. I don’t know if I want kids, but I want the option.
At the moment, with out self control and excercise, I don’t ahve that option.
I’m at least trying to organise my time to excersise, but it doesn’t happen, after work I feel too tired to walk. Let alone all the other stuff I feel I have to do once I get home.

I know it’s excuses- I need to make it work- I just don’t know how.