Bit by Bit

I have to say, generally, my fitness kick is doing ok. Not reaching the 6 time s a week peak I want, but still successfully getting there 3-4 times a week, baby steps.

I don’t think I’m going so well with food. Weekends tend to blow out. I’ve been down lately, so the Macca’s breakfasts and lardy coffee confections have slipped in. I’m trying though.

I’m still buying big clothes, cos I love them and they fit. I got a great top on ebay last week and decidied to wear it out, cos I felt sexy in it.

But this photo below makes me look so fat. I know it’s a bit of comparision and Tony’s a skinny man- but I look huge. This is the photo on the fridge moment. I love the top, but I hope I really didn’t look that fat.

I planned to get up every morning and go to the gym. But that’s unrealistic- I’m aiming for 3-4 visits. Maybe 5-6 next week- I’ve got to work up to it.

Damn Mondays- fish and chips, M&Ms- such a bad, bad thing. But Wasabi mayonaise makes it taste nice. On the fish of course, with the M&Ms would be just weird.

Fast food sucks.
Last night, about 11, coming home from Tony’s I was really hungry. I’d had some bikkies and dip, wine and few chips since my big breakfast- so I was a bit peckish. I seem to find that going to the gym makes me hungrier, I don’t think that’s a good thing.
Anyway, after driving to a few better choices (all shut), I dropped into the local Macca’s for a smal chips and some McNuggets. When I got to them they were cold and gross, but I ate them anyway.
This morning I’m grumpy, depressed, shouty, weepy and irritable. I didn’t even feel like nookie. I must be Morgan Spurlock

Anyway, this is my proof that fast food is a bad, bad thing.

It’s been a pretty good week, I’ve been to the gym 3 times (at 5am in the morning twice) and heading out for a 4th trip today.
I’ve been pretty good with food too, although I’ve succumbed to some Peanut M&M eggs (currently hidden on top of my computer desk), I’m rationing them out.
Even when I didn’t have time for lunch during the week- I had sushi. In fact my biggest indulgence for the week- a violet crumble iced choclate from gloria Jean’s, and I’m more morally opposed that nutritionally opposed to it ATM, but I had a freebie on my loyalty card and I decided to use it!

I’m not sure this is for me: dieting and blogging. It all seems so hard. I’m no good at writing down my feelings with food- I want to hide it, the food, the feelings, my fat. I’m trying but it’s hard.
Small successes today: sunday brekky outing- rather than eggs, bacon, hash browns and holandiase sauce, I compromised with Trukey, avo and camenbert crossaint. Not great but better.
No ice cream or lollies at the candy bar, even though I was faning for some peanut M&M’s.
I’ve been very good since I got home. So far- today’s been good and I’m about to go to bed.