Bit by Bit

Well I guess there could be no more excuses. I had to do something, while I seem to have got back to the eating program, I still haven’t been exercising.

So while Saturday night I had 1.5 beers, some greasy food and half a piece of cake (Bec took the other half off me in an amazing display of discipline) and Wednesday night was curry with friends, this week has been all about hauling ass. Surprisingly, it worked!

I’ve never been motivated to exercise, I hate pain and perspiration and think that grunting and sweating is time that could be better spent nurturing your mind or belly. However, I understand that it is a necessary evil to lose weight and so I must worship at the altar of the treadmill, despite my inability to enjoy it.

I did 30 minutes of cardio on Monday, Tuesday, Thursday and Friday mornings. I also did weight Monday, Tuesday and Friday morning and skated for the whole session on Tuesday (2 hours). So all in all, I’m blown away with how much exercise I did.

I have to thank BMB for a bit of motivation too- Friday morning was particularly difficult, but he kicked me out of bed without a second glance. It’s good when tough love works.

Currently- 106.2 kgs

While the first two weeks were pretty easy- it’s so hard to slip back into old habits. It’s still too easy for me to make excuses to eat silly things because we’re away for the weekend, I’m tired, I’ve tried so hard.

I won’t go into details, but having a salad during the day is the killer- I’m used to something more substantial and that can throw me off. Although my biggest weakness is wanting to eat while I’m driving, strange I know, but I guess the car and junk food snacks are a connection I need to break.

The psych seems to be working.

Did I mention that I went to Adelaide last weekend and ate myself stupid?

Currently- 107.1kgs

Maybe starting this so close to my birthday, wasn’t a good idea. This week has not been good.

I’m happy to gloss over the fact I haven’t been to the gym, and the only excercise I did was skating training (2 hours) on Tuesday night. I’ll linger a little longer on the fact I’ve started seeing a psychologist about my lack of motivation, commitment and issues with food. (more…)

After regaining my whole weight loss (3 piddling kilos) of January to September 2007, in October to December 2007- I’m trying a different approach.

Strangely enough, I’ve been mulling it over for months- but it shames and disturbs me so much, I didn’t really want to put it online. Because then it is real, and public, and I’m accountable.

Which is a few of the reasons I wanted a diet blog separate from my personal one in the first place. (more…)

I’m back from my trip overseas with a new lease on this weight loss thing. We’ve started the CSIRO program again (we were on it for 10 weeks of the 12 week plan before I went away). I’ve probably lost 3 kilos or so in the last couple of months, but I’d still like to lost more before Christmas.

So eating under control- I need ot concentrate on the harder part, excercise. Between illness, work and going away I haven’t been in 6 weeks. I was going to go this morning, but the siren call of work is calling. I might step out this afternoon, to the gym or just for a walk. We’ll see- but I need to get back, its’ the only way to make it work.

I’m bad at keeping a diet blog- almost as bad as I am at sticking to diets.

I had a few good weeks for a while there- the food tasted good, excercise was easy and the kilos came off.

Then I got bored, sick, tired and the wheels came off the bandwagon again. I’m trying like hell to get back on it- but it’s hard.

It’s all about making and breaking habit that I don’t think I have the brain power or perseverence for.

Anyway- time for bed. I’m going to try to get to the gym in the morning.

I didn’t even realise I’ve been avoiding it for so long. It’s not that i haven’t been dieting, in fact the pressure is more, as my heart condition reappeared and my fertility relies on my weight loss.

While trying- it hasn’t been all that successful until the last few weeks. We’re currently trying the CSIRO diet and I’ve lost about 2 kilos in two weeks. If I can maintina that rate of weight loss, I’ll be bale to think of babies by the time I get back to the cardiologist next July.

There’s been a plethora of emotion around those two issues for the last 12 months or so you have been fortunate to avoid. Instead I’ve dumped it all on my nutritionist. There’s a lot of emotion between me and food, but i have a lot of resolve to make this work.

Little steps at the moment, but it’s all encouraging.

I lost a little, but slacked a lot. I’m hoping normal program ing will resume shortly.

or it was all going so well.
Then the end of term hit. I had work to do, and got lazy- no gym for two weeks.
Then there’s the lunches and choclates. Everyone loves to hand out chocolates close to Easter.

I’m still having trouble being good on the weekend, but worst of all, work has been getting me down. The good thing is that BMB has steered me away from the junk food- the bad thing is, it’s still in the back of my mind.
I’ve got 10 days off and don’t know how I’ll cope- I tend to binge over Easter.
I’m not going to keep this off. So much for 95 by September.
I was looking forward to possibly making babies over summer…..

I have to say, generally, my fitness kick is doing ok. Not reaching the 6 time s a week peak I want, but still successfully getting there 3-4 times a week, baby steps.

I don’t think I’m going so well with food. Weekends tend to blow out. I’ve been down lately, so the Macca’s breakfasts and lardy coffee confections have slipped in. I’m trying though.

I’m still buying big clothes, cos I love them and they fit. I got a great top on ebay last week and decidied to wear it out, cos I felt sexy in it.

But this photo below makes me look so fat. I know it’s a bit of comparision and Tony’s a skinny man- but I look huge. This is the photo on the fridge moment. I love the top, but I hope I really didn’t look that fat.